Sad ....

haiz ... 当某人与某人在谈话是。。若他们在说我坏话。。我将会突然地听见。。不知是幻觉
还是真的。。之前有boikot的消息。。也是我听见的。。 过后才有人偷偷告诉我。。
不久前。。我听见她和她在交谈。。"这样的男朋友可以要咩?" 特别的刺耳。。过
后我认为那"男朋友就是我。。过后我觉得我和她越离越远。。。为何每次都是朋友
干涉的?好的是他们帮。。破坏的也是他们。。
Everything will just be fine if we think positive.. but think too positive
= escaping ..
我之前甚至有想过她对我是有好感 的。。but she says i think too much .. and
i feel so ..
ps lazy type chinese le .. so slow ..
dont know wanna how to say .. i just know .. myself was too tiny ..
too useless.. cant even help her do somethings..
i was not strong enuf ,, Juumping .. Pumping .. everything i tried ..
just for her ..
But isn't it heart is important than physical ?
Nono... everything changed ... Haiz ... I fancy her but she doesnt have
the same mind as me .. she dont fancy me .. there are somethings make me
sadder ... bcuz she hates to see me .. Fancy = 1 ppl problem . now is i
fancy her not she fancy me .. everything became so hard... i wanna help
but cant ... she not allow... wanna do something special to her ...
plan finished but think tio .. is she fancy me not i fancy her .. everything
just gone at once ..
dont know wat to do ...
aimless ..