tired ..

I had been spent my whole holiday for 20th tc preparation.. and what i always aimed was TBMB.. i didnt worked any harder jz do what ever i always do to my PL when jota.. but then the other ppl said tht it can look very clear that i worked very hard.. Aiks .. I HAD BECAME DARKER !! 2 days of gadget building under the hot sun .. i am now a abunehneh =.= .. SO dark.. 1 st day i sitll ok .. but once reached home i straight felll asleep. 2nd day ...something bad happened today.. at first someone fell and sprained her hand .. 2nd someone cut his hand and leg ... then .. the whole patrol only left the only ppl .. then according to the tradisional of 54th Scouts .. that person will be the best member .. WTF ? but then he always eat snake and didnt do anythings .. like this very unfair leh .. Tradision .. So wat ? but then all the OCs dont want to break it ... and today one of the OCs ask me to train my marching team as i was the commander .. and he say he want give us " The Best Marching Team" o0o ? tot u is who cna decide everything ? u want give us The Best Marching Team we oso dont want la ... The tradision is every patrol only can take one The Best de prize .. c+B la .. if we did well must get the prize what why must like this ? I was dissapointed .. at first i tot that 54th scout is very pro one .. but then when i joined .. all of the ppls were fighting .. OMG ? then their attitudes so DAM .. but better than KaRaSai .. then now ... they are always under the control of TRADISIONAL ! aiks .. and this make the management so DAM and then it kills the creativity of us .. I just hope i can get what i want ... i wanna to change IT ! I HATE IT .. I HATE PPL MAKE UNFAIR DECISION .. I HATE PPL WHO LANC.. I HATE PPL WHO ALWAYS KUTUK .. I HATE PPL THAT DONT KNOW CONTROL THEMSELVES .. I HATE PPL WHO DONT KNOW MENGHARGAI JASA .. I HATE PPL WHO ALWAYS MERENDAHKAN ORANG .. I HATE PPL WHO ALWAYS PERLI !! AND ALOT MORE .. THATS SO DAM c+b

The only way doesnt work ... How ?

Listening to songs & music is the only way to heal the sadness of my soul, its can calm down the anxiousness of my soul and make me energetic .. But sometimes it doesnt work .. Why ? Why it doesnt work when i need it very very much ? There is something that had been left a deep deep cut in my heart .. That something cannot be calm through listening to music and songs ... Aiks..

忘记

忘记并不是坏事可是往往该忘记的事我却没忘记不该忘记的东西我却偏偏忘记

逃避是不敢面对现实，人们会选择逃避是因为他们认为逃避就可以不用面对挫折。。

这些观点都错了。。面对现实并想办法克服才是上上之计。。有些事情是可以用时

间来解决的。。再给他们一些时间!