Monday, April 26, 2010

她的魔力

固执的我一旦疯了什么都忘了,不顾一切。。
什么话也听不进。。
但只有她的话能够影响我。。
她的一句话。。
足以让我放下一切切。。
对他的不满都忘了。。
再多的不满和埋怨都不见了。。
所有的事都解决了

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Think positive & be happy

Sometimes .. when we faced problem .. dont disappointed and regret and make conclusion early..
yah it's true ..
when u face something then u said urself unlucky and suey siao.. then everything will be suey..
if u think it's nothing then it will be fine..
don't conclusion early ..
if u say 100% wont happen that things .. sometimes it will proved to u that the things not 100% accurate .. in the other hand .. when u afraid of somethings and u confident with somethings which u think 100% wont happen.. just keep it in heart ..
and we should be aizaimaikia ! To exemplify .. like u want to somethings then u afraid and not dare to start ur steps .. then u wont be successful. as we learnt in kh elektif & perdagangan.
seseorang usahawan haruslah berani menghadapi cabaran dan sanggup menanggung risiko .
ya.. if u dare to face cabaran & risiko then u will be successful . 1st step was most important .
when u do somethings .. must be confident with ur own . dont afraid and dont ran away.. face everythings normally .
everythings oso came from our experience .. but unfortunately .. all of us once bitten twice shy and not dare to do again .. sometimes .. if last time we did wrong . we should think where we wrong and correct it .. then it will be a road for us to walk to our future ..

patience + teliti + confident + hardwork + brain = success !

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Nothings gonna change my love for u ~

Now .. my aim was to do my things well ..
bother about u too much kena u say ...
dont want bother u my heart will pain ..
too bother u my heart more pain..

好想回到过去。。我已做错了很多事。。
看了你以前的blog。。还有一些和我们以前有关的事。。真的真的。。很想回去那时
候。。感觉真好。。当然。。不可一直往后看。。一定要望望前方的路。。再后悔
也来不及了。。回忆里的我们都保持着很好的彼此..但现在。。。

内疚+痛苦

没关系啦。。谁叫我喜欢你。。

不管有什么事发生。。那种感觉仍存在

Friday, April 23, 2010

Historical ~

last week starts ..
i everyday face black black ..
know why ?
1st .. i was upset .
2nd .. angry .
upset becuz her .
angry oso bcuz her .
upset is she never choi me .
angry is becuz he ..
kaisen made me angry but why ?
1st he dont know wat la ..
seems like challenging my eq .
did many things . then i str8 beh tahan .
then before the day i gone anger .
i ald tot le .
want scold ks wat and want do wat .
1st i tot is cold war .
dont choi him.
this for his advantage .
he told me he want be serious .
and with this he sure became serious de ..
^^ angry still think for ppl .. great ?

2nd ..
i dont want choi him becuz he seems like washing brains..
many ppls dont want choi me liao .

3rd.
still alot la lazy write ..

then cn seems angry ..
str8 come find me ..
many times ko..
although she dont know anythings..
but .. she say that all my fault siol ..
funny leh !~
dont know still dare say my fault ?
aiks.. disappointed >.<

suak lor ...
now i dont care anythings . lazy to cares too..

Monday, April 19, 2010

忘了吧~

当受到这么大的打击。。
我选择了逃避和忘记。。
从上个星期五开始。。
我把所有东西忘得一干二净。。
但还是存在于我脑海中。。
其他的我都忘了。。
脾气开始变不好。。
星期日整天都在玩电脑。。
星期一全部书忘记带。。
难怪书包那么轻。。

忘了吧~
忘记一切~

Thursday, April 15, 2010

wanna challenge me ?

hey u ~ wanna challenge me ? last time i was fool and so i played by u ! now i am not an idiot anymore . i tahan ! u wait and see ! SO wat ??? closer pro meh ? C+B kia stay aside . i wont get effected

counselling 1

From one of the dialogue in "Prisoner Of Zenda" ..
Princess Flavia said that 'Yes, Rudolf, love is not all.....' to Rudolf Rassendyll.
Yes ! it is correct ! love is not everything !
Pricess Cinderela wish to say this to PhinShen :
' Yes, Shen , love is not everything .. You should not sacrifice yr future(studies) for her ..
you are not such idiot ppl .. You should not take this foolish action ! Yes .. i know u love her .. but u really shouldn't do this stupid things .
ok 1st ..
how if she really accepted u after u sacrificed ur result and future ? that time u dont have bright future anymore .. does she still wanted to be with u ?
Yes i know u really love her a lot... i knew u already took ur heart out ..yes no gain without pain .. there is no such things u could earn without hardwork .. yes of course u have to sacrifice .. but not foolish like this .. Just sacrifice and do what u should do ..
Yes i know u love CN .. but .. when u came to love .. u went mad and lost control . u should learnt to control ur EQ & IQ .. mind ur P's and Q's .. Dont anyhow get mad .. She is everything for u .. and so u should not left all other things alone . such as ur friendship ? ur job ? ( scout ) and ur studies ?
Fight for her .. yes , Fight urself for her .. means ?
Work hard and improve urself .. reserve a best LPS for her ..
Academic , sports , co-curiculum attitudes and all others !

ok counselling finish .
In a nutshell.. u love her but u shouldn't blindfold by love .. dont get mad .
Since today u should not feel sad of her .. why ?
CAuse now is u love her but she doesn't she oso has her freedom to do decision . yes u shouldn't force her .. u should do wat u should do as a fancier of her .. try to get her heart ? this is waht u oways do . yes correct but not by forcing .. wat i should do ?
Gifts ,
Carings,
protections
and many more .
ready to sacrifice something to save her .. but not future .

ok now are uawake ? i noe u still in ur dream .. dont worry there are still a lot of counselling class u will attend .
now just climb up ! dont be down ! Fight for her ! Fight for ur dream .

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

heart pain..

这几天胸口很闷。。
有时甚至心会无缘无故地痛。。
很难受
今天你哭了。。
虽然不在现场。。
也不知来龙去脉
但看见你哭红的双眼。。
心。。
武断端地痛起来。。
再次自责
明明想问。
但有不敢。。
真没用
听说你一收到
我的信息。。
会删除掉。。
不敢相信。。
我只知道
你没回过我。。
而且也对我很冷淡。。

好想。。
你别那么地冷漠。。
把我当朋友就对了。。
可惜。。
你选择逃避。。
我很想很想多和你接触。。
很想靠近你。。
但。。
失败了。。
不是你逃
就是我不敢
希望你看完我的文章。。
变得没那么冷淡。。

Monday, April 12, 2010

Why i was sad this few days ..

第二次为了你而落泪还好并不是哭。。很内疚
我是不是很没用?
不能让你开怀大笑
不能保护你
不能帮助你
不管成绩或者别的都不能超越你。。
很内疚为什么什么也不能?
只能眼睁睁地看着你受委屈
去年后面那个木板倒下来打到你
你哭了。。
我竟像木头那样坐者。。
我并没上前去抚慰。。
很自责。。
虽然你原谅了我。。
但是我仍然忘记不了我的过错。。
过后我们去图书馆。。
很想向你道歉
但你逃走了。。
当天晚上。。
我泪了。。
那一个星期五
永远都忘不了。。
那天晚上的补习。。
老师很幽默的。
我竟然笑也不笑。
很多人都被我那副脸吓坏了。。

这几天。。
我那副脸又来了。。
开始想起以前的一切一切
对你的过失。。
和你曾经经历过的一切
比较起来。。
为什么现在的我们不同了?
变得比较远了。。

这几天。。
我疯了。。
EQ再也不受控制。。
喜怒无常。。
一时笑。。
一时生气。。乱发脾气
一时苦。。
一时冷静。。
一时沉默不语。。

那些以前的事都用上心头了。。
有时会觉得。。
胸口闷闷的。。
很想很想有将功补过的机会。。
很想有一次祢补的机会。。
但是。。
最近对你做的任何事。。
都被你推倒了。。
想帮你付钱。。
反而被你讲。。
不管什么好像都不再是好的。。
不知所措。。
不知道能做些什么。。
我会尽力的。。
我不会又再眼睁睁地看着你落泪。。

那些以前的事都用上心头了。。
有时会觉得。。
胸口闷闷的。。
很想很想有将功补过的机会。。
很想有一次祢补的机会。。
但是。。
最近对你做的任何事。。
都被你推倒了。。
想帮你付钱。。
反而被你讲。。
不管什么好像都不再是好的。。
不知所措。。
不知道能做些什么。。
我会尽力的。。
我不会又再眼睁睁地看着你落泪。。

现在最重要的是振作起来。。
别再这样下去。。
每天无精打采地。。
但是有什么东西能再次刺激我这座冰山?
希望你能帮到我

Saturday, April 10, 2010

No mood ..

why must they do like this ?
why must they do this to me ?
Why why why?
really really no mood ...
really really upset ..
Lost my soul ..
Lost my way ..
No more energy to face that all kinds of idiots ..

Hope can have a good rest before a war happen ..

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Gambateh

Nothing will defeat me !
dont defeated by such little things .
Tahan and return when it's time .

changed place...

Sad..
but i could do nothing.
Dull..
Make ur pattern.
Happy..
cant even smile.
Angry ..
Scared others.

why ? why ? why ?
why have to change our place ?
From being so near until so far ..
What u want more ?
Tot that we could really pay fully attention by this ?
NO ! i couldn't even stop thinking of her .
My mind was very blur ..
Nowadays..

Very very fan ! Frustrated !
Why?? why are the ppl in this world have to do these ?
Why cant they stop throwing stones towards me who fall into the well ?
Just wait ! i will show u . ! By using my feet and my hands !
I will climb over everything !

I couldn't kihiao nowadays .. sososo fan.. !
I gonna mad ..
And i finally been mad today !

what am i fan-ing of ?
that girl of course.
the only girl can effect my emotionally successfully.
Why ? Dont know ..

my mind now full of questions mark and curious and pekcek .
Hope someone can save me !

Monday, April 5, 2010

dream really came true ..

my 1st dream which is anitha change our place came true .. but .. not sit beside her .. was a he !! hate that T.T .. all sit back to the original place ... >.< .. and .. last time i so hard call hadi change me to sit nearer to her ... but now became so far apart liao ..
Teacher a .. i dont want change place lar ... But lucky .. still can see tio her ..
hehez.. really hope teacher will change me to the seat nearer to her ... aiks ..

Dream .. hope it really comes true =X

Ah~! Followed 2 days dreamed about her . Both oso she sitting beside me .. Omg .. 1st is anitha change our place and i sat beside her . that time we both very shy and dont know want to say what.
2nd is on the way to somewhere else .. she and i sat together at the bus .. very shiok and we keep chatting .. then .. most kuazhang de is the scene changed to she fetch me home =.= .. dream oways so kuazhang ...

So shiok .. if we can really like my dream so close then great =D ..

Saturday, April 3, 2010

我可以很自私地要求一些事吗?我希望能多与你聊天。。虽然不能如同往日。。

Friday, April 2, 2010

2-4-2010

2200 .. called her .. but she didnt picked up .. or closed ..
2201 called again .. she picked up .. scared me .. 0.41 .. which is 41 sec of talks ..
Aiks .. 1st time leh ... so nervous

stupid teachers

idiot la teachers .. ok now let me start with math teacher.
She was so so so ....
that day .. the toilet suddenly came out very strange smell .
then we all laughed ..
then she suddenly scolded us
say our IQ high no use de .. EQ low oso same nia ..
MY HEART : teacher, ur EQ very high meh ? everyday come in nia tio scold ppl and angry ..
u everyday come in get angry = EG high ? small things nia tio angry .. GND LAR ~
then chinese teacher oso same .
Everyday get angry nia .. everyday so such a lame and childish activity ..
then scold scold scold ..
why all the teachers like this one ? tot themselves correct .. then all students wrong ..
TEachers very pro meh ? elders very pro meh ?

中间

有时候当双方要求你在两方之间挑选一个。。
那么我觉得当中性人最好不过。。
要不然你要选择其中一方然后互相对立。。?
中性也就是代表说两方都支持
或者两方都不支持。。
中间虽然是最难做的
但也是最安全的。。
当然这只是一些事情可以这么说。。

爱情就不能这么说。。
因为爱情只允许2个人。。
所以。。

Feel of Fancy 2

She was very beautiful ..
made me wanted to see her everyday ..
She was fully filled in my mind ,
my mind was full of her ..

Thinking her everytime ..
Missed her when just a day didnt saw her ..
Sometimes she made me happy ,
And sometimes she made me upset ..

Whenever she made me happy ,
i will smile from my heart ..
very very very happy ..
and sweet as well.

She said she dont fancy me ..
and wanted me to give up.
i answered: wont !.
i wont give up !

Whenever she laughed ..
i will follow to smile ..

Working very hard to become active ,
taller
&
braver !.

She was the most important to me ..
i would like to sacrifice myself ..
just for her ..

She was just like an angel ,
who melted the iceberg in my heart..

When face her ..
my heart would jump very fast ..

Nothing gonna blur my mind anymore ..
last time many things confused me ..
But now ,
Not anymore !

Now my feel of fancy towards her ..
increased more than before.
when she closed to me ..
i will be very happy and anxious

I LOVE U !
AND I WISHED TO GET TOGETHER WITH U !

31/3

REcess time , she , as the cleanliness incharge have to stay in class as usual.Last time i saw her walked out from class then i oso go down dy .. Today finally i know is she go return book. Today me and kaishen stay in class too. we joked and she laughed.. so happy as i can get close with her . then after the teacher checked she wanna close door dy .. she used her hand touched my back and pushed me out. cant say is push , but just slightly push me out ..the slightly touch straight touched through my heart . i was so so so ... dont know how to say .. just ki hiao , then i keep smiling ..