爱一个人不需回报

爱你是我心甘情愿的。。
我并不需要你的回报。。
也不想让你感到难为。。
你可以选择不爱我。。
但请别把我爱你的权力给没收了。。
我的要求不多。。
只要你给我机会。。
给我一个爱你的机会

Dont know why .. nowadays my mind kusut masai .. very luan..
She never reply my msg that night .. wonder and wonder and wonder ..
But at last i know the ans .. she went to sleep.. =.=
2nd day .. Dont know la ... our qi fen not like last time ..
this time very cool ... scared and disappointed..
i wish .. we can like last time .. chat non stop.. talk everythings..
I wish .. i can have a chance from u ...
I wish .. u can act dont know i fancy u ... so that wont paiseh..
Then we will like friends .. can talk and chat and discuss tgt..
And wait until i was taller than u .. and i will tell in fornt of u ..
I wish .. i will get taller earlier...
I wish .. i was braver ..
I wish.....................................................

Well.. everything i wish will not comes true ..
Nvm .. just keep it on ..
But i really really hope we can closer

PekCek ! 25-2-10

Haiz... His pattern i really tak boleh tahan ..
From the beginning until now ...
What she did to other girls i dont care..
But .. The only thing i cares is ...
Why he got seat dont want to sit but must go to sit beside girl ?
Especially her !
Why ?
Then say i will angry .. YA ! i will angry ! Then ? why dont u go awaY?
You tot who are u ?
Can do whatever u like ?
CALM CALM CALM ! This is what i tell myself that time .. but .. really beh tahan ..
50% exploded ...
i said : Why must u sit there? didnt u have a place?
OI Tiko Dont paksa me ... I dont wish to explode
i dont want to scold ppls
i dont want to fight with ppls ...
calm and clam and clam ~
Tahan and tahan and tahan

寸=qun

能寸就寸不能寸就不要忖，
有东西寸就寸没东西寸就静静，
存得起就寸寸不起就别寸，
别像有些人。。
寸不起也寸寸不起也寸。。
其实就像个空花瓶。。
外面讲到几美。。
其实内涵只是空壳。。

chinese new year

this year chinese new year so bored... didnt have the feel oso =.=..
quite bored la go relative house then sit there whole day and gambling ...
okok la got win some ~.~" but its such a good way to pass the time ..
but sit till pigu sakit zzz... haiz..

CNY.. every1 happy .. me ?
i was just sitting aside and think think think ..
maybe i was hu xi luan xiang lar ..

Nvm.. I will face them ..
i will defeat them !

烦恼

被爱的感觉是怎样的?
爱一个人的感觉有时如何?
天啊! 谁能回答我?
人们兼有感情但会表达的
又有几个?
虽然是非常非常的喜欢她。。
但是又不知道她心里想的是什么。。

YEAH ! Something saved me from darkness...

要记得是你喜欢她，
不是她喜欢你。。
所以你应该付出，
喜欢一个人所该付出的。。
而并不是她
她不喜欢你没关系。。
只要你记得你喜欢她就可以了。。
喜欢是一个人的问题。。
爱就是你喜欢她所付出的。。
你不能干涉她的生活
因为你不是她的谁。。
也没权力去干涉。。

爱是甜蜜的。。
不是苦的。。
在寻找爱得时候。。
或许是苦的。。
但苦尽甘来。。
爱一个人那么辛苦吗?
的确的。。
但需看你如何管理。。
如何保温。。

既然你爱上了她。。
那就轰轰烈烈、死心塌地地去爱吧。。
不需管别的。。
就算结果还是失败了。。
或者伤亡了。。
没关系因为你曾经如此地爱过她。。
没关系因为你尝试了去爱她。。
没关系至少受伤的是你不是她。。

去吧!去爱吧!把你纯真的爱心献给她!

Sad ....

haiz ... 当某人与某人在谈话是。。若他们在说我坏话。。我将会突然地听见。。不知是幻觉
还是真的。。之前有boikot的消息。。也是我听见的。。 过后才有人偷偷告诉我。。
不久前。。我听见她和她在交谈。。"这样的男朋友可以要咩?" 特别的刺耳。。过
后我认为那"男朋友就是我。。过后我觉得我和她越离越远。。。为何每次都是朋友
干涉的?好的是他们帮。。破坏的也是他们。。
Everything will just be fine if we think positive.. but think too positive
= escaping ..
我之前甚至有想过她对我是有好感 的。。but she says i think too much .. and
i feel so ..
ps lazy type chinese le .. so slow ..
dont know wanna how to say .. i just know .. myself was too tiny ..
too useless.. cant even help her do somethings..
i was not strong enuf ,, Juumping .. Pumping .. everything i tried ..
just for her ..
But isn't it heart is important than physical ?
Nono... everything changed ... Haiz ... I fancy her but she doesnt have
the same mind as me .. she dont fancy me .. there are somethings make me
sadder ... bcuz she hates to see me .. Fancy = 1 ppl problem . now is i
fancy her not she fancy me .. everything became so hard... i wanna help
but cant ... she not allow... wanna do something special to her ...
plan finished but think tio .. is she fancy me not i fancy her .. everything
just gone at once ..
dont know wat to do ...
aimless ..

Disappointed ~

Why am i so useless ? STUPID FUCKING NOOB IDIOT ! Useless~Shen !!!!!
why are u so short? why are u so soft ? why are u so stupid ? nothing of u can help her ... WHY ?? WHY ???!@! GOD CAN U PLS SAVE ME ?? GONNA DIE !

Angers ~ but gone after saw something ^^

oi fucking C+B punya teacher are u a stupid or an idiot ?
Call us to do such a stupid childish work ..
Sing a song i ald beh tahan ..
Furthermore call us do a Bookmark for u ?
PUI ! want bookmark do urself or go buy la ..
my CNY feel gone when i saw u ..
Fucking Sh!t faces .. And please dont do ur lanjia0 sound ..
Heard like a ghost yelling ..
y ur eye pa jia0 de ? Shooting who ? birds? OMG ! want talk to me but seeing kosong ... so funny ..
And hor the bookmarks to exchange .. are u teaching kindergarden ? pls.. pls ... pls ... u are a sec sch teacher .. dont be such a childish person pls ? could u pls be matured a bit ? that one is i did when i was kindergarden lar ... ur teaching method was fully like that ...

Disgusting ! ( all will say i tidak bertanggungjawab )

They all .. keep saying what my ex my ex ...
OMG .. i think thats not my EX gua..
Wondering why i will do so last time ..
Why i so terburu-buru ?
I shoul wait patiently .. Think carefully .. Its too late ..
Haiz.. Secara terburu-buru .. Last last last time ..
when i still a standard 2 kid ..
Ppl keep say she fancy me and say i oso fancy her..
The khabar angin .. keep making my mind blur ..
Until standard 5 .. still got ppl say so ..
Then i secara terburu-buru did something ...
Then after that ... i think that was just illusion..
Haiz ... tot too much .. as i started to plan my future since i standard 5..
then as my prediction.. and that was a dream .. all about my future ..
there is a girl too ..

Haiz .. dont want say dy la .. terrible past time ..
Now .. i finally wat is called a truely crushed on a girl ..
i really really really fancy that girl a lot ..
Sesal dahulu pendapatan, Sesal kemudian tiday berguna ..
Guys.. That "EX" which i dont recognised it as my Ex ..
u all want say what oso can but i clear with myself enuf ..
Who i fancy so much and who i misses when i was free ..

Useless..

I felt myself so useless ..
why? i dont know ...
whenever she faced problem...
i want to help her ... but i cant..
feeling and thinking to do so ..
but scare others will say her..

when she nid help ..
i cant help her ..
paste and hang things ...
becuz i was too short ..

when she kena bully ..
i cant campur tangan cuz they might be joking
and i must give her some freedom what ..
arbo joking oso cant meh ? NO FREEDOM

wanna to do something ..
but .. the only things delay me and make the chances gone ..
is my bravery ..
and.. she dont fancy me ...
scared kena shoot again >.<

i am so useless...
Too short..
Too soft ..
Too timid..
To stupid..

I AM AN IDIOT !

WHAT I NEED WAS CHANCE !
WHAT I NEED WAS TIME !
WHAT I NEED WAS BRAVERIES !

Why there is so many halangan ?
Haiz...

!~烦~!

bo xim....

Aiks .. bo xim study ... nowadays in sch keep dreaming .. thinking this thinking that.. looking her ...
Haiz... the teachers so boring la ... keep say say say.. dont noe what they talking ..
i everytime study or exam oso got aim ... now .. no aim yet.. seems 1A exam i gonna die till ...
Bo Xim... Bo Xim study .. Bo Xim tuition .. All oso bo xim ..
just wu xim to sleep ^^
why are the life so boring ? why ??
everyday do the same thing ...
no challenging at all..

dont know want to write what ..
just can write ..

BO XIM TO STUDY !!!

gonna happen something like my pri sch time ... HATE TEACHERS & DOGS !

X老师，我不想和你吵打哈欠有罪吗?打哈欠是因为累或闷或者头脑缺少氧气时头脑自
然的行动。。A班的态度?呸!Discipline进来的咧?态度是各人的。。学习?全部都是
为考试而读的。。要我和你交谈?好笑。。再怎么说到底还不都是老师永远对的。。
学生永远错得。。。和你交谈简直是浪费口水。。 说什么珍惜时间你分明就是浪费
时间。。跟你说对不起?为何要这样做?尊敬吗?你不配!根本不会教书。。我认为我
没错!!班长有写字条给我。。教我怎样讲。。或许附近的同学会觉得我固执。。包
括她。。没错为什么要道歉?小学的事已经让我对老师灰心了。。也使我学会对的就
是对的。。不需道歉。做错了才需道歉。。只要心安理得。。那件是到现在我还忘
不了。。这也是我会坚持不道歉的原因!
我非常不爽那些只会使人家丢脸的人。。他们往往认为这是最好的处罚。。但你们
有没有想过人的自尊? 没关系我能忍。。我的忍功是一流的。。 全部我都能忍除了
TIKO做的事!!
哀哉。。明天X老师将问的问题。。
X>> 怎样?这位同学你是否已经知道自己该怎么做?
STIM>> stim stim 地回答。。har ?
X>> 难道一天了你还半苏醒?
stim>> keep quite ..
X>>看来我们今天有要像昨天这样渡过两堂课啊。。
stim>>diam diam ...
X>>这位同学。。你不知道你错在哪里吗?
stim>> just stim stim and stand there ... ( 不想吵 )

第二个可能性

X&stim quarrel..
X>> 怎样?这位同学你是否已经知道自己该怎么做?
stim >> 老师我认为我并没有错
X>>为什么?
stim >> 老师我请问你你没有打哈欠过吗?
打哈欠有罪吗?
打哈欠是因为累或闷或者头脑缺少氧气时头脑自然的行动。。
A班又怎样?很厉害?
还不是有人因为discipline而进A1 的。。


( but sure wont happen la .. i will just endure )