Thursday, January 28, 2010

~|FREEDOM|~

anythings on9 is freedom ! post things at blog is our freedom ! so please not afraid to post anythings ^^ get it ? just say what ever u want .. no ppl will blame u

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Anti-TIko-ing ~

SI tiko !! i behshiok !
today so chamm .. formen have to take all the files .. i wanna stand up to help but scare she dont let ... so i stop and think awhile .. teacher call assistant formen stand up to help .. i wanna replace him de .. but then that si tiko stand up dy .. i press till pecah .. wTH !! Si tiko assistant formen oso havent stand up u stand up for what ? after that he tell me that he like to help ppls ( le yu zu ren ) .. LOL funny la .. u help girls only la .. what type of girls oso want .. u only help girls.. since when u got help boys ? find reason nia .. tikopek = tikopek .. cannot change the truth .. tell u dont be tiko infront me i sibeh hate that .. i behtahan of the actions.. and oso very disappointed with myself .. why am i so afraid ? why i never stand up ?? aiks .. i became very dull after that ..

~| P3k C3k | Hate tik0 |~

Monday, January 25, 2010

Adui ...

Omg ... Since when CLB got so many tikopek de ??
My Class have 1 .. He hor .. oways go kacau gal one lurh ..
Call he do things for us . will call till die .,
Gal say tio nia straight fly go do ..
And hor he everyday in class walk lai walk qu.. chat lai chat qu ..
All oso girls =.=
So TIKO !!
Copy things . he cant get then must lend from girls wor .. quite far .. dont know lend from me ? i was sittign in front of him nia =.=

Next it is our senior ..
is ard 2x yr old de graduated student ..
He hor everyday go to crowd of girls and at there so mesra ..
After sch .. keep say bye bye with girls ..
Then me and my friends pakat wave hand and say bye to him he straight diam7 LOLS

Then i behshiok de is CLB DOGGYS ~
why got human to be dont want must be a dog leh ?
So guai lan...
Stand nia call me sit down ?
my cloth drop out cant wait i eat finish a ? must do it now ?
just last few suap nia ..
and hor pls dont anyhow bark ..
dont paksa me scold u ..
Everyday at there do till lanc lan yong .. see liao oso eye red ..
Especially H the dog ..

Friday, January 22, 2010

失望。。

也许是 我不能忍了
也许我最近压力过大
也许睡不够
或者说我老羞成怒了
还是我变了。。
变得没有耐性了。。

你每天欺负人。。
你的pattern是在开玩笑。。
你也习惯了。。
见到人就是动手不动口。。
打招呼的方式太特别了。。
特别到人家不能感到你的真诚。。
只是感觉到痛!

我一再的忍耐。。
可能我比较有耐性
所以以前到现在我都不管。。
痛也痛一下罢了。。
但是你可知道
我也是人肉做的。。
并不是沙包。。
要怎样发泄都可以。。

你shoot我。。
我外表看起来好像没关系。。
心里却想着不一样的东西。。
你可知道在你个人的观念中。。
是有着大大的错误?
你个人认为。。
不一定是全部人。。
你可知道现在的人都是人云亦云?
你说什么人家也跟什么。。
结果咧。。受伤的人有是我。。
你可知道你做的一切有着很大的影响力?
你在她或别人面前说的。。
都不正确。。
你却自作聪明。。
认为一定对。。
结果咧大家都这样开始认为我是怎样的人。。
一人传虚,万人传实。。

我不能忍了也不想忍了。。
我已经开始对这世界上的人开始起了疑心。。

大家。。 请说出你们的意见。。
朋友是不是就可以毫无提防呢?
朋友是不是不会背叛你呢?
朋友是不是会伤害你?

我开始看到有人露出了尾巴。。
有人开始要背叛我。。
有人开始要伤害我。。
我原以为。。人是重感情的。。
但是往往有人因为权势而忘记
什么是最珍贵的。。
哀哉。。

现在我才发现原来忍气吞声
只会显得自己很没用。。
是懦夫!!
忍让只会委屈自己。。
在这种世上。。
有这种精神又怎样?
还不是被人看扁。。
从此别怪我无情!!
是你们逼我的!!

~Dissappointed of the world ~

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

To pengyou

be friends need be till like this ? i now quite behshiok wondering last time why i so frn with u .. there's nothing to talk to u .. Fine i noe i not ur best friend nvm .. i can live alone without you .. see u nia tio quarrel .. shiok meh?

Saturday, January 16, 2010

To ( O )

do you know why am i confusing whether wanna in or not ? bcuz i dont want others say that i get post becuz of relationship.. at first i oso dont let others noe who was my sis .. i wanna get the post by myself .. with my own hard work .. i behshiok ppl po lp .. and i oso wont do that ..

Sunday, January 10, 2010

feeling useless of myself

She , for me is something very important ..
Me , for her is something makes her suffer ..
I fancy her a lot but she didn't ..
I hope that i could do something for her ..
but i couldn't ..
I hope i can protect her ..
but i can't ..
I hope i can help her ..
but she didnt allow..

Why ? I jealous ..
When she chat with friends ..
She will smile and laugh ..
When she faced me ..
She didn't ..
Maybe its becuz i was too cool ..
I hope that she dont know that i fancy her ..
And we can chat and laugh like others ..

I hate myself ..
Why am a so afraid to face her ?
Why my brain hang when faced her ?
Why cant i jz like other ppls ?
Live without bordering ..
But i cant ..
My mind and my attitudes changed..
Since i was standard 5 ..
And since that time ..
I started to be a cool person ..
And this made others say that i am Lanc..
Everytime they say which part of me pro ..
I will replied " Ai zai la " in the joking tone ..
For me .. This doesn't meaned i was lanc ..
Its jz joking ok ?
But why ? their thinking and mine was not same ?
Dont say that ..

I hope ..
I can do something for her ..
Help her whenever she faced trouble ..
Dont make her suffer ..
I wanna be a brave person which dared to face her ..
I wanna be a active person .. like others ..
Noe how to jokes ..
I wanna protect her ..
But i cant ..
What i have was just a timid soul ..
Not only face her ..
Ask teachers question oso not dared ..
I was too weak ..
Physically .. i was too small in size ..
Mentally .. i was not brave enuf

I was trying hard ..
To changed myself ..
Hey girl ..
Please wait ..
wait until i fully changed myself..
To a perfect person ..
Which is brave enuf .. strong enuf ..
Brilliant enuf .. and active enuf ..

Saturday, January 9, 2010

2A2

2A2 was just like the graveyards ..
Quiet... until u can heard..
The sound of Far aways birds..
The Sound .. of a needle fall on the floor ..

I hoped to in this class ..
As she was in the class ..
I hoped to see her everyday ..

2A2 .. every teacher tot that we very brilliant ..
and might skip some teachings ...
I wanna tell them ..
Although we were brilliant ..
but r u sure that all of us still rmb ?
all of us know ?

2A2 .. All oso guai guai student ..
All oso studying quietly ..
Why cant we jz like A1 and other class?
A1 .. the first class.. they got pia till like this ?
they are so active ..
Can joke and chat
Why cant we ?
Just like others ?
Chat and joke ..
Why must u all so quiet ?
tot A2 must pia ?
Must study harder ?
must fight till like this ?

At first .. i love A2 alot .. as she is there
now .. 2A2 .. U DISSAPOINTED ME
U MADE HER .. Dull .. and not active as she is form 1

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Attidudes ...

aiks .. his attitudes made me quite beh shiok .. TC he so lc.. tot he get XX jiu pro .. then someone was keep bullied by him .. dance.. his pattern seems like dont know dance then act lai de ... pumping .. then keep saying me lc pula ? teach him when he do wrong say i qun .. i diam diam do my things say i lc.. wat u want wor ? when he talk .. he never pass tru his brain .. very hurt ppl and siasui .. he didnt respect elders .. joking till over dy ... then after TC we prepare for orientation .. keep take TBMB press me .. suansia0 me .. wth ? then call he do work say i order him .. and i didnt have post to order .. but its sir's orders what .. call he do work dont want do .. then eat snake ... at the last when its time for me to rest .. say i eat snake ? did he know what i did ? the amount i did ? then he snake that time call me do work ? what u want wor ?? i was a human cannot work for 24 hours w/o rest man .. what u nid to do was juz care attitudes and yr mouth . thanks .. i dont want to break the circle

20th tc ( 26 dec ~ 28 dec )

after a long period of preparation.. its the time that we await for so long .. the 20th scout and guides training camp .. My first time of training camp .. Everything havent done .. none-experienced .. everything berlaku secara tiba-tiba.. presentations .. all i have participate in .. then Backwood mans cooking .. ah.. learnt quite a lot .. how to make pancake , roti lilit and others way for backwoods .. the only didnt learnt was the way to make fire ..model making .. then we go for Marching .. as a commander .. quite anxious.. at the end .. nid to lapor but i forget =.= siasui.. night time we have night game .. i didnt sleep the whole night .. that night game so boring .. just walk walk walk i tot got some scary things .. CLB looks scary during midnight .. especially the clock tower there .. 2nd day modern cook.. this was wat i always preparing .. the recipe was mine .. i wrote it myself .. at the end .. everything CMI .. Gathering night .. dam happy and shiok.. have free dance .. when its our turns to present our modern dance .. so funny .. we all forget the steps .. then we go aside practise before present .. so lucky .. we did so many mistakes.. and the sound system in-charge .. press wrong then the songs stop .. the VIPs call us to dance again .. they very high ^^ ... felt quite happy cuz i didnt do wrong .. then its totempole presentation .. my throat sibeh pain and cant out sound .. so i let my partner to present .. i just at side tell him what to say... after that is free dance .. i learnt para para sakura .. then we go back to tent .. heard that tonight will have Emergency Call .. then i planned not to sleep but i fall asleep .. then actually it doesnt have EC .. 3rd day .. today will have stations .. so PL keep call us eat more .. we run some stations .. almost all i oso ok .. only wall climbing ... move too slow and my guan jie got prob .. then we go have theory test .. i done it quite fast but i dont want to pass up .. just put there .. after that we cont run stations .. then we go watch the video of the world jambouree .. so shiok i want go oso T_T .. but no $$ .. hope one a day i can go la .. dam fun ..then its time for The Best Members to interview .. others strike gadgets .. aiks go in there tio shoot till cham cham.. heard that they say i dont know say things de .. then its closing ceremony .. i get The Best Member ^^ as i wish .. but then very surprised The Best Commander and The 3rd Best Theory .. LOLs .. didnt tot that form 1 will get theory prize .. after that we take photos and went home .. So Shit .. when i go interview.. they go strike gadgets .. dont know who take my parang then didnt put back .. i cant found !!