2nd time + XX

(tuesday)aiks 2nd time made her felt dissapointed .. this time i oso felt disappointed with my self .. i quarrel with xx a .. this time xx straight go find her ask her come settle .. then carmen , 38 and her 3 ppl shooting me .. wanna say what oso cant la 1v3 sure lose.. this time very cham a ... i cried >.<.. luckily she never angry .. she said i too care about her dy a ... and she cant tahan .. T_T .. gonna change dy o cinderela..

Ok now .. lets say about this xx ... i behshiok him becuz hor everytime i never behshiok him then he say i behshiok him... pekcek bo ? ppl just tired wanna rest say ppl behshiok him le .. say till i behshiok him..
and hor dont know why when i with him sure tio timpa malang de.. 1st time tio teacher scold tidak bertanggungjawab 2nd time tio teacher say never do homework 3rd time he broke my plan 4th aiks mai say le ... everytime with him very sui siao one .. and he very xiao qi one .. say tio him abit nia then angry dy ... he never think our feel when he say us .. still got what a ? many la .. lazy say le .. arbo will became hate him again

Nvm la he still a kid .. must forgive him la ...

1ST CAMP > JOTA-JOTI

yoz all.. sorry for long never update.. becuz i preparing for jota and went there . jota stand for jambouree on the air and joti stand for jambouree on the internet. very fun leh.. .1st day we build gadgets ... then night time very enjoy .. we dancing all the way .. and i learnt break from zhenhong.. then night time we sleep and keep joking =.= then just sleep for 4 hours .
The 2nd day .. we layout our racksets... then we tio sshooot becuz the layout should be layout in personal.. actually 1st i ald layout by personal then the senior call me put tgt with theirs .. then tio scold lor .. after that station started .. i ran for 18 stations and then ard 3pm i go present totempole with laychern. didnt felt nervous at all la .. becuz one of the judge is my sis's friend .. and same age with her.. so got 1 亲切感.. then after present .. many ppl ald finished all the stations la .. swt lor .. slow alot .. then the other ppl use the special eye sight to see me .. ( tot he very good in physical .. why will win he leh ? hahas that mean i better la)..then no heart dy .. slowly run lor .. run till 23 like this .. ohya.. the 24th hor .. more cham .. i wanna go challenge deadman.. mana know i wait there so long.. sir straight jump up and then they finished.. i didnt .. TIMES UP ! .
Shit lor stations had been closed. 3rd day ... i solo go pia all the stations ... 1st is joti ..then i go deadman and others... easy la .. the most cham is the comando.. we have to crawl over the muds .. OHya got 1 more funny incident >> after climbing tree and i get down from that .. i saw a K810i on the chair i tot its mine .. becuz everytime i go physical test oso got take out but this time i never.. i straight take it then i go toilet to change casual clothes for muds... then i realised that my pocket got 2 .. i very nervous then i straight run go the station and ask the stationer is that hers/ his ? then they said no but its my friend one =.=" sia sui.. then TL asked us who took others phone or stole .. i scared sia ... i tot back sch will tio punish... but thats not my fault la.

Wa pekcek !

yo sibei pekcek a got a senior like this >>
he hor very cham one .. other senior call me do this work then he call me go do other work
u shiok meh ? if ppl ald know u got work and call u do 1 more ... settle 2 at once ? funny...
then hor.. anything very hard and he dont like / know .. will call form 1 go do one .. mana fair ?
raining day call ppl run out go buy things ?
no raining day dont call ?
then call me help support him .. then keep do till his pekcek pattern ..
Think 1st la pls ? u cover tio my sight how i see ? funny
then keep scolding wor .. hear tio oso pekcek .
he tot who he ? keep on ordering ...
and i am PT in the patrol .. he knew but keep do till dont know i am the PT ..
then sit place... he dont want sit there keep call me change with he ?
anythings bad only know throw to form 1 ppl .. sitting alone very lonely la . call me 1 ppl go ?
then jota that time .. building gadgets .. keep playing solo ? then never teach and scold ?
form 1 de ppl go there wanna learn oso never teach la .. slow efficiency one .. other ppl ald finish but he ? haha
then running station.. call me follow them .. then 1st station i follow them then he call me care all the phones.. then they run finish le straight go other station never wait me . wht the hell ? call me be maid la ?
take the things then follow they only ? then i no nid get badge lor ?
after that i throw all the things back to them and solo run ..
after he saw me straight scold me wor .. say dont alone run la .. WHAT THE FUCK ?
and his pattern i really beh tahan .. luckily i not same patrol with him in school.
ohya.. stil got 1 things.. my plan i think its ok .. becuz more save time ..
he dont wnat use just say la . find the very cham de reason..know what he asked?
he asked how to make holes and tins ? ( sure use nails and hammer what)
he then asked me where to find the tools ( sure the nearest place > scout room la )
walao leh

CONCLUSION > I BEH SHIOK HIM LA ... c+b DE LEH KEEP BULLYING ? AND SOLOING ? WHAT WE GONNA LEARN ? WHAT WE GONNA DO ? DO ALL THINGS ALSO TIO SCOLD

墙与门

其实每个人之间都隔着一栋墙。。
它保护你。。避免被他人伤害
只有你家人能够靠近你。。
但是有时候就是那栋墙建得太高了。。
人家很难接近..


其实每个人的心灵都有一扇门。。
它从未被打开过。。
它永远都被铁链及锁头封着。。
直到你找到你的另一半。。
你是钥匙的主人..
你有权力决定
你要让谁进去

喂。。我很想打开你心灵的那扇门。。
多了解你。。
可以吗?

对不起

对不起，我知道我很没用，

没在第一时间上前保护你，安慰你，

当时我的心就像有支针插在那。。

我很后悔，

为何当时不上前去而在那儿发愣。。

希望时光能倒流，

回到当时的情景。。

若能回头我希望当时是她受伤过后，

我不忍心再看她受伤。

我答应你我一定会在第一线保护及安慰你!

最后还是想说声对不起。。是我的错，是我没有用。。

Anxious a ...

Sunday > wa .. so anxious tomorrow gonna see and sit beside her dy o...
Monday> really sit beside her .. but i not dare to talk a ... very warm there o ^^ i keep on smiling and whole body sweating
Tuesday>Argh today she ran to the back and sit a ..
Wed> she sat beside me after i said she scared .. heart jumping so fast a ..
Thurs> not dare to sit 5cm between us 1 sentence talked to her
Fri> got improved a .. i took away my bag ..