爱一个人不需回报

爱你是我心甘情愿的。。
我并不需要你的回报。。
也不想让你感到难为。。
你可以选择不爱我。。
但请别把我爱你的权力给没收了。。
我的要求不多。。
只要你给我机会。。
给我一个爱你的机会

Dont know why .. nowadays my mind kusut masai .. very luan..
She never reply my msg that night .. wonder and wonder and wonder ..
But at last i know the ans .. she went to sleep.. =.=
2nd day .. Dont know la ... our qi fen not like last time ..
this time very cool ... scared and disappointed..
i wish .. we can like last time .. chat non stop.. talk everythings..
I wish .. i can have a chance from u ...
I wish .. u can act dont know i fancy u ... so that wont paiseh..
Then we will like friends .. can talk and chat and discuss tgt..
And wait until i was taller than u .. and i will tell in fornt of u ..
I wish .. i will get taller earlier...
I wish .. i was braver ..
I wish.....................................................

Well.. everything i wish will not comes true ..
Nvm .. just keep it on ..
But i really really hope we can closer

PekCek ! 25-2-10

Haiz... His pattern i really tak boleh tahan ..
From the beginning until now ...
What she did to other girls i dont care..
But .. The only thing i cares is ...
Why he got seat dont want to sit but must go to sit beside girl ?
Especially her !
Why ?
Then say i will angry .. YA ! i will angry ! Then ? why dont u go awaY?
You tot who are u ?
Can do whatever u like ?
CALM CALM CALM ! This is what i tell myself that time .. but .. really beh tahan ..
50% exploded ...
i said : Why must u sit there? didnt u have a place?
OI Tiko Dont paksa me ... I dont wish to explode
i dont want to scold ppls
i dont want to fight with ppls ...
calm and clam and clam ~
Tahan and tahan and tahan

寸=qun

能寸就寸不能寸就不要忖，
有东西寸就寸没东西寸就静静，
存得起就寸寸不起就别寸，
别像有些人。。
寸不起也寸寸不起也寸。。
其实就像个空花瓶。。
外面讲到几美。。
其实内涵只是空壳。。

chinese new year

this year chinese new year so bored... didnt have the feel oso =.=..
quite bored la go relative house then sit there whole day and gambling ...
okok la got win some ~.~" but its such a good way to pass the time ..
but sit till pigu sakit zzz... haiz..

CNY.. every1 happy .. me ?
i was just sitting aside and think think think ..
maybe i was hu xi luan xiang lar ..

Nvm.. I will face them ..
i will defeat them !

烦恼

被爱的感觉是怎样的?
爱一个人的感觉有时如何?
天啊! 谁能回答我?
人们兼有感情但会表达的
又有几个?
虽然是非常非常的喜欢她。。
但是又不知道她心里想的是什么。。

YEAH ! Something saved me from darkness...

要记得是你喜欢她，
不是她喜欢你。。
所以你应该付出，
喜欢一个人所该付出的。。
而并不是她
她不喜欢你没关系。。
只要你记得你喜欢她就可以了。。
喜欢是一个人的问题。。
爱就是你喜欢她所付出的。。
你不能干涉她的生活
因为你不是她的谁。。
也没权力去干涉。。

爱是甜蜜的。。
不是苦的。。
在寻找爱得时候。。
或许是苦的。。
但苦尽甘来。。
爱一个人那么辛苦吗?
的确的。。
但需看你如何管理。。
如何保温。。

既然你爱上了她。。
那就轰轰烈烈、死心塌地地去爱吧。。
不需管别的。。
就算结果还是失败了。。
或者伤亡了。。
没关系因为你曾经如此地爱过她。。
没关系因为你尝试了去爱她。。
没关系至少受伤的是你不是她。。

去吧!去爱吧!把你纯真的爱心献给她!

Sad ....

haiz ... 当某人与某人在谈话是。。若他们在说我坏话。。我将会突然地听见。。不知是幻觉
还是真的。。之前有boikot的消息。。也是我听见的。。 过后才有人偷偷告诉我。。
不久前。。我听见她和她在交谈。。"这样的男朋友可以要咩?" 特别的刺耳。。过
后我认为那"男朋友就是我。。过后我觉得我和她越离越远。。。为何每次都是朋友
干涉的?好的是他们帮。。破坏的也是他们。。
Everything will just be fine if we think positive.. but think too positive
= escaping ..
我之前甚至有想过她对我是有好感 的。。but she says i think too much .. and
i feel so ..
ps lazy type chinese le .. so slow ..
dont know wanna how to say .. i just know .. myself was too tiny ..
too useless.. cant even help her do somethings..
i was not strong enuf ,, Juumping .. Pumping .. everything i tried ..
just for her ..
But isn't it heart is important than physical ?
Nono... everything changed ... Haiz ... I fancy her but she doesnt have
the same mind as me .. she dont fancy me .. there are somethings make me
sadder ... bcuz she hates to see me .. Fancy = 1 ppl problem . now is i
fancy her not she fancy me .. everything became so hard... i wanna help
but cant ... she not allow... wanna do something special to her ...
plan finished but think tio .. is she fancy me not i fancy her .. everything
just gone at once ..
dont know wat to do ...
aimless ..

Disappointed ~

Why am i so useless ? STUPID FUCKING NOOB IDIOT ! Useless~Shen !!!!!
why are u so short? why are u so soft ? why are u so stupid ? nothing of u can help her ... WHY ?? WHY ???!@! GOD CAN U PLS SAVE ME ?? GONNA DIE !

Angers ~ but gone after saw something ^^

oi fucking C+B punya teacher are u a stupid or an idiot ?
Call us to do such a stupid childish work ..
Sing a song i ald beh tahan ..
Furthermore call us do a Bookmark for u ?
PUI ! want bookmark do urself or go buy la ..
my CNY feel gone when i saw u ..
Fucking Sh!t faces .. And please dont do ur lanjia0 sound ..
Heard like a ghost yelling ..
y ur eye pa jia0 de ? Shooting who ? birds? OMG ! want talk to me but seeing kosong ... so funny ..
And hor the bookmarks to exchange .. are u teaching kindergarden ? pls.. pls ... pls ... u are a sec sch teacher .. dont be such a childish person pls ? could u pls be matured a bit ? that one is i did when i was kindergarden lar ... ur teaching method was fully like that ...

Disgusting ! ( all will say i tidak bertanggungjawab )

They all .. keep saying what my ex my ex ...
OMG .. i think thats not my EX gua..
Wondering why i will do so last time ..
Why i so terburu-buru ?
I shoul wait patiently .. Think carefully .. Its too late ..
Haiz.. Secara terburu-buru .. Last last last time ..
when i still a standard 2 kid ..
Ppl keep say she fancy me and say i oso fancy her..
The khabar angin .. keep making my mind blur ..
Until standard 5 .. still got ppl say so ..
Then i secara terburu-buru did something ...
Then after that ... i think that was just illusion..
Haiz ... tot too much .. as i started to plan my future since i standard 5..
then as my prediction.. and that was a dream .. all about my future ..
there is a girl too ..

Haiz .. dont want say dy la .. terrible past time ..
Now .. i finally wat is called a truely crushed on a girl ..
i really really really fancy that girl a lot ..
Sesal dahulu pendapatan, Sesal kemudian tiday berguna ..
Guys.. That "EX" which i dont recognised it as my Ex ..
u all want say what oso can but i clear with myself enuf ..
Who i fancy so much and who i misses when i was free ..

Useless..

I felt myself so useless ..
why? i dont know ...
whenever she faced problem...
i want to help her ... but i cant..
feeling and thinking to do so ..
but scare others will say her..

when she nid help ..
i cant help her ..
paste and hang things ...
becuz i was too short ..

when she kena bully ..
i cant campur tangan cuz they might be joking
and i must give her some freedom what ..
arbo joking oso cant meh ? NO FREEDOM

wanna to do something ..
but .. the only things delay me and make the chances gone ..
is my bravery ..
and.. she dont fancy me ...
scared kena shoot again >.<

i am so useless...
Too short..
Too soft ..
Too timid..
To stupid..

I AM AN IDIOT !

WHAT I NEED WAS CHANCE !
WHAT I NEED WAS TIME !
WHAT I NEED WAS BRAVERIES !

Why there is so many halangan ?
Haiz...

!~烦~!

bo xim....

Aiks .. bo xim study ... nowadays in sch keep dreaming .. thinking this thinking that.. looking her ...
Haiz... the teachers so boring la ... keep say say say.. dont noe what they talking ..
i everytime study or exam oso got aim ... now .. no aim yet.. seems 1A exam i gonna die till ...
Bo Xim... Bo Xim study .. Bo Xim tuition .. All oso bo xim ..
just wu xim to sleep ^^
why are the life so boring ? why ??
everyday do the same thing ...
no challenging at all..

dont know want to write what ..
just can write ..

BO XIM TO STUDY !!!

gonna happen something like my pri sch time ... HATE TEACHERS & DOGS !

X老师，我不想和你吵打哈欠有罪吗?打哈欠是因为累或闷或者头脑缺少氧气时头脑自
然的行动。。A班的态度?呸!Discipline进来的咧?态度是各人的。。学习?全部都是
为考试而读的。。要我和你交谈?好笑。。再怎么说到底还不都是老师永远对的。。
学生永远错得。。。和你交谈简直是浪费口水。。 说什么珍惜时间你分明就是浪费
时间。。跟你说对不起?为何要这样做?尊敬吗?你不配!根本不会教书。。我认为我
没错!!班长有写字条给我。。教我怎样讲。。或许附近的同学会觉得我固执。。包
括她。。没错为什么要道歉?小学的事已经让我对老师灰心了。。也使我学会对的就
是对的。。不需道歉。做错了才需道歉。。只要心安理得。。那件是到现在我还忘
不了。。这也是我会坚持不道歉的原因!
我非常不爽那些只会使人家丢脸的人。。他们往往认为这是最好的处罚。。但你们
有没有想过人的自尊? 没关系我能忍。。我的忍功是一流的。。 全部我都能忍除了
TIKO做的事!!
哀哉。。明天X老师将问的问题。。
X>> 怎样?这位同学你是否已经知道自己该怎么做?
STIM>> stim stim 地回答。。har ?
X>> 难道一天了你还半苏醒?
stim>> keep quite ..
X>>看来我们今天有要像昨天这样渡过两堂课啊。。
stim>>diam diam ...
X>>这位同学。。你不知道你错在哪里吗?
stim>> just stim stim and stand there ... ( 不想吵 )

第二个可能性

X&stim quarrel..
X>> 怎样?这位同学你是否已经知道自己该怎么做?
stim >> 老师我认为我并没有错
X>>为什么?
stim >> 老师我请问你你没有打哈欠过吗?
打哈欠有罪吗?
打哈欠是因为累或闷或者头脑缺少氧气时头脑自然的行动。。
A班又怎样?很厉害?
还不是有人因为discipline而进A1 的。。


( but sure wont happen la .. i will just endure )

~|FREEDOM|~

anythings on9 is freedom ! post things at blog is our freedom ! so please not afraid to post anythings ^^ get it ? just say what ever u want .. no ppl will blame u

Anti-TIko-ing ~

SI tiko !! i behshiok !
today so chamm .. formen have to take all the files .. i wanna stand up to help but scare she dont let ... so i stop and think awhile .. teacher call assistant formen stand up to help .. i wanna replace him de .. but then that si tiko stand up dy .. i press till pecah .. wTH !! Si tiko assistant formen oso havent stand up u stand up for what ? after that he tell me that he like to help ppls ( le yu zu ren ) .. LOL funny la .. u help girls only la .. what type of girls oso want .. u only help girls.. since when u got help boys ? find reason nia .. tikopek = tikopek .. cannot change the truth .. tell u dont be tiko infront me i sibeh hate that .. i behtahan of the actions.. and oso very disappointed with myself .. why am i so afraid ? why i never stand up ?? aiks .. i became very dull after that ..

~| P3k C3k | Hate tik0 |~

Adui ...

Omg ... Since when CLB got so many tikopek de ??
My Class have 1 .. He hor .. oways go kacau gal one lurh ..
Call he do things for us . will call till die .,
Gal say tio nia straight fly go do ..
And hor he everyday in class walk lai walk qu.. chat lai chat qu ..
All oso girls =.=
So TIKO !!
Copy things . he cant get then must lend from girls wor .. quite far .. dont know lend from me ? i was sittign in front of him nia =.=

Next it is our senior ..
is ard 2x yr old de graduated student ..
He hor everyday go to crowd of girls and at there so mesra ..
After sch .. keep say bye bye with girls ..
Then me and my friends pakat wave hand and say bye to him he straight diam7 LOLS

Then i behshiok de is CLB DOGGYS ~
why got human to be dont want must be a dog leh ?
So guai lan...
Stand nia call me sit down ?
my cloth drop out cant wait i eat finish a ? must do it now ?
just last few suap nia ..
and hor pls dont anyhow bark ..
dont paksa me scold u ..
Everyday at there do till lanc lan yong .. see liao oso eye red ..
Especially H the dog ..

失望。。

也许是 我不能忍了
也许我最近压力过大
也许睡不够
或者说我老羞成怒了
还是我变了。。
变得没有耐性了。。

你每天欺负人。。
你的pattern是在开玩笑。。
你也习惯了。。
见到人就是动手不动口。。
打招呼的方式太特别了。。
特别到人家不能感到你的真诚。。
只是感觉到痛!

我一再的忍耐。。
可能我比较有耐性
所以以前到现在我都不管。。
痛也痛一下罢了。。
但是你可知道
我也是人肉做的。。
并不是沙包。。
要怎样发泄都可以。。

你shoot我。。
我外表看起来好像没关系。。
心里却想着不一样的东西。。
你可知道在你个人的观念中。。
是有着大大的错误?
你个人认为。。
不一定是全部人。。
你可知道现在的人都是人云亦云?
你说什么人家也跟什么。。
结果咧。。受伤的人有是我。。
你可知道你做的一切有着很大的影响力?
你在她或别人面前说的。。
都不正确。。
你却自作聪明。。
认为一定对。。
结果咧大家都这样开始认为我是怎样的人。。
一人传虚，万人传实。。

我不能忍了也不想忍了。。
我已经开始对这世界上的人开始起了疑心。。

大家。。 请说出你们的意见。。
朋友是不是就可以毫无提防呢?
朋友是不是不会背叛你呢?
朋友是不是会伤害你?

我开始看到有人露出了尾巴。。
有人开始要背叛我。。
有人开始要伤害我。。
我原以为。。人是重感情的。。
但是往往有人因为权势而忘记
什么是最珍贵的。。
哀哉。。

现在我才发现原来忍气吞声
只会显得自己很没用。。
是懦夫!!
忍让只会委屈自己。。
在这种世上。。
有这种精神又怎样?
还不是被人看扁。。
从此别怪我无情!!
是你们逼我的!!

~Dissappointed of the world ~

To pengyou

be friends need be till like this ? i now quite behshiok wondering last time why i so frn with u .. there's nothing to talk to u .. Fine i noe i not ur best friend nvm .. i can live alone without you .. see u nia tio quarrel .. shiok meh?

To ( O )

do you know why am i confusing whether wanna in or not ? bcuz i dont want others say that i get post becuz of relationship.. at first i oso dont let others noe who was my sis .. i wanna get the post by myself .. with my own hard work .. i behshiok ppl po lp .. and i oso wont do that ..

feeling useless of myself

She , for me is something very important ..
Me , for her is something makes her suffer ..
I fancy her a lot but she didn't ..
I hope that i could do something for her ..
but i couldn't ..
I hope i can protect her ..
but i can't ..
I hope i can help her ..
but she didnt allow..

Why ? I jealous ..
When she chat with friends ..
She will smile and laugh ..
When she faced me ..
She didn't ..
Maybe its becuz i was too cool ..
I hope that she dont know that i fancy her ..
And we can chat and laugh like others ..

I hate myself ..
Why am a so afraid to face her ?
Why my brain hang when faced her ?
Why cant i jz like other ppls ?
Live without bordering ..
But i cant ..
My mind and my attitudes changed..
Since i was standard 5 ..
And since that time ..
I started to be a cool person ..
And this made others say that i am Lanc..
Everytime they say which part of me pro ..
I will replied " Ai zai la " in the joking tone ..
For me .. This doesn't meaned i was lanc ..
Its jz joking ok ?
But why ? their thinking and mine was not same ?
Dont say that ..

I hope ..
I can do something for her ..
Help her whenever she faced trouble ..
Dont make her suffer ..
I wanna be a brave person which dared to face her ..
I wanna be a active person .. like others ..
Noe how to jokes ..
I wanna protect her ..
But i cant ..
What i have was just a timid soul ..
Not only face her ..
Ask teachers question oso not dared ..
I was too weak ..
Physically .. i was too small in size ..
Mentally .. i was not brave enuf

I was trying hard ..
To changed myself ..
Hey girl ..
Please wait ..
wait until i fully changed myself..
To a perfect person ..
Which is brave enuf .. strong enuf ..
Brilliant enuf .. and active enuf ..

2A2

2A2 was just like the graveyards ..
Quiet... until u can heard..
The sound of Far aways birds..
The Sound .. of a needle fall on the floor ..

I hoped to in this class ..
As she was in the class ..
I hoped to see her everyday ..

2A2 .. every teacher tot that we very brilliant ..
and might skip some teachings ...
I wanna tell them ..
Although we were brilliant ..
but r u sure that all of us still rmb ?
all of us know ?

2A2 .. All oso guai guai student ..
All oso studying quietly ..
Why cant we jz like A1 and other class?
A1 .. the first class.. they got pia till like this ?
they are so active ..
Can joke and chat
Why cant we ?
Just like others ?
Chat and joke ..
Why must u all so quiet ?
tot A2 must pia ?
Must study harder ?
must fight till like this ?

At first .. i love A2 alot .. as she is there
now .. 2A2 .. U DISSAPOINTED ME
U MADE HER .. Dull .. and not active as she is form 1

Attidudes ...

aiks .. his attitudes made me quite beh shiok .. TC he so lc.. tot he get XX jiu pro .. then someone was keep bullied by him .. dance.. his pattern seems like dont know dance then act lai de ... pumping .. then keep saying me lc pula ? teach him when he do wrong say i qun .. i diam diam do my things say i lc.. wat u want wor ? when he talk .. he never pass tru his brain .. very hurt ppl and siasui .. he didnt respect elders .. joking till over dy ... then after TC we prepare for orientation .. keep take TBMB press me .. suansia0 me .. wth ? then call he do work say i order him .. and i didnt have post to order .. but its sir's orders what .. call he do work dont want do .. then eat snake ... at the last when its time for me to rest .. say i eat snake ? did he know what i did ? the amount i did ? then he snake that time call me do work ? what u want wor ?? i was a human cannot work for 24 hours w/o rest man .. what u nid to do was juz care attitudes and yr mouth . thanks .. i dont want to break the circle

20th tc ( 26 dec ~ 28 dec )

after a long period of preparation.. its the time that we await for so long .. the 20th scout and guides training camp .. My first time of training camp .. Everything havent done .. none-experienced .. everything berlaku secara tiba-tiba.. presentations .. all i have participate in .. then Backwood mans cooking .. ah.. learnt quite a lot .. how to make pancake , roti lilit and others way for backwoods .. the only didnt learnt was the way to make fire ..model making .. then we go for Marching .. as a commander .. quite anxious.. at the end .. nid to lapor but i forget =.= siasui.. night time we have night game .. i didnt sleep the whole night .. that night game so boring .. just walk walk walk i tot got some scary things .. CLB looks scary during midnight .. especially the clock tower there .. 2nd day modern cook.. this was wat i always preparing .. the recipe was mine .. i wrote it myself .. at the end .. everything CMI .. Gathering night .. dam happy and shiok.. have free dance .. when its our turns to present our modern dance .. so funny .. we all forget the steps .. then we go aside practise before present .. so lucky .. we did so many mistakes.. and the sound system in-charge .. press wrong then the songs stop .. the VIPs call us to dance again .. they very high ^^ ... felt quite happy cuz i didnt do wrong .. then its totempole presentation .. my throat sibeh pain and cant out sound .. so i let my partner to present .. i just at side tell him what to say... after that is free dance .. i learnt para para sakura .. then we go back to tent .. heard that tonight will have Emergency Call .. then i planned not to sleep but i fall asleep .. then actually it doesnt have EC .. 3rd day .. today will have stations .. so PL keep call us eat more .. we run some stations .. almost all i oso ok .. only wall climbing ... move too slow and my guan jie got prob .. then we go have theory test .. i done it quite fast but i dont want to pass up .. just put there .. after that we cont run stations .. then we go watch the video of the world jambouree .. so shiok i want go oso T_T .. but no $$ .. hope one a day i can go la .. dam fun ..then its time for The Best Members to interview .. others strike gadgets .. aiks go in there tio shoot till cham cham.. heard that they say i dont know say things de .. then its closing ceremony .. i get The Best Member ^^ as i wish .. but then very surprised The Best Commander and The 3rd Best Theory .. LOLs .. didnt tot that form 1 will get theory prize .. after that we take photos and went home .. So Shit .. when i go interview.. they go strike gadgets .. dont know who take my parang then didnt put back .. i cant found !!

tired ..

I had been spent my whole holiday for 20th tc preparation.. and what i always aimed was TBMB.. i didnt worked any harder jz do what ever i always do to my PL when jota.. but then the other ppl said tht it can look very clear that i worked very hard.. Aiks .. I HAD BECAME DARKER !! 2 days of gadget building under the hot sun .. i am now a abunehneh =.= .. SO dark.. 1 st day i sitll ok .. but once reached home i straight felll asleep. 2nd day ...something bad happened today.. at first someone fell and sprained her hand .. 2nd someone cut his hand and leg ... then .. the whole patrol only left the only ppl .. then according to the tradisional of 54th Scouts .. that person will be the best member .. WTF ? but then he always eat snake and didnt do anythings .. like this very unfair leh .. Tradision .. So wat ? but then all the OCs dont want to break it ... and today one of the OCs ask me to train my marching team as i was the commander .. and he say he want give us " The Best Marching Team" o0o ? tot u is who cna decide everything ? u want give us The Best Marching Team we oso dont want la ... The tradision is every patrol only can take one The Best de prize .. c+B la .. if we did well must get the prize what why must like this ? I was dissapointed .. at first i tot that 54th scout is very pro one .. but then when i joined .. all of the ppls were fighting .. OMG ? then their attitudes so DAM .. but better than KaRaSai .. then now ... they are always under the control of TRADISIONAL ! aiks .. and this make the management so DAM and then it kills the creativity of us .. I just hope i can get what i want ... i wanna to change IT ! I HATE IT .. I HATE PPL MAKE UNFAIR DECISION .. I HATE PPL WHO LANC.. I HATE PPL WHO ALWAYS KUTUK .. I HATE PPL THAT DONT KNOW CONTROL THEMSELVES .. I HATE PPL WHO DONT KNOW MENGHARGAI JASA .. I HATE PPL WHO ALWAYS MERENDAHKAN ORANG .. I HATE PPL WHO ALWAYS PERLI !! AND ALOT MORE .. THATS SO DAM c+b

The only way doesnt work ... How ?

Listening to songs & music is the only way to heal the sadness of my soul, its can calm down the anxiousness of my soul and make me energetic .. But sometimes it doesnt work .. Why ? Why it doesnt work when i need it very very much ? There is something that had been left a deep deep cut in my heart .. That something cannot be calm through listening to music and songs ... Aiks..

忘记

忘记并不是坏事可是往往该忘记的事我却没忘记不该忘记的东西我却偏偏忘记

逃避是不敢面对现实，人们会选择逃避是因为他们认为逃避就可以不用面对挫折。。

这些观点都错了。。面对现实并想办法克服才是上上之计。。有些事情是可以用时

间来解决的。。再给他们一些时间!

Never wake me up when i am in your hugging. Looking at you, I don't want to let your go, I just wan to hold your hands again, it warmth my heart

Happiness is just an illussion filled with sadness and confusion.Love is just an illusion of heaven and hell.

If I have you so much why do I still love you.

Nights like this I wish raindrops would fall to cover my tears.

love is like heaven but it hurts like hell. Its happy when there's love and hurts like hell when it gones

I want to live the day that never dies, in a world without you is living in hunger.

i know wat is beautiful when i see you.U walk into my life to beautifies my life

Music..Cant cover the feel of sadness which fully filled in my heart .. Although didnt cry but the tears rolling in my eyes .. seem like gonna drops but didnt .. its just rolling inside.. Close up my eyes all i can see was only the darkness and sadness .. and those things which made me regretful.. Closing up eyes helps to save the tears .. save them from fighting each other inside my eyes ..

Tears, nearly drop from my eyes ..
Sadness, fully filled in my heart ..
Happiness, had gone ..
Brain, not going to work ..
Bodies, no energy to move ..
Without that my life will be sucks...

Quite sad ..

其实说放弃你只是嘴上说说的。。
相信你也知道我这样做其实只是为了你能比较舒服点。。
喜欢一个人不是说放下就放下的。。我也不打算放弃。。
虽然你已多次说过要我放弃，你是不可能接受我的。。但我也从没放弃过。。也许
是太喜欢你了吧。。
这种痛算什么?最痛还是被亲近的人背叛。。你因为过去的黑暗回忆使你完全失去信
心。。那人很可恶。。但是希望你能忘掉过去。。
虽然说我们现在当朋友但是对你的爱意仍存在于我心中。。我只允许你伤害我。。
完全不允许我伤害你。。
虽然心很痛但是也无所谓吧。。只要这能使你舒服些什么也愿意。。
虽然说望好方面想一切将是完美的。。可惜错了。。
怎样想都还会痛。。因为用情太深了。。
"放弃" 2 字算什么?还不是说爽?嘴上说的和心里想的可以完全不同。。
一旦我决定喜欢你我已准备受伤了。。没关系为了你是值得的^^
你曾经问我为何喜欢你。。答案>因为我喜欢你，那是感觉，喜欢一个人不需要什么
理由
你曾经文我几时才肯放弃。答案>我不会放弃的。。(为什么) 因为我不想放弃。。
我喜欢你。。我有自由喜欢一个人。。你有权力决定接受或不接受。
你也曾经问我如果你喜欢一个人我会怎样。。答案>>也许你在考验我。。也许是真
的。。没关系。。去喜欢他吧。。放心我 不会难过。。
不能说我是固执。。也不能说我是执着。。只可说我喜欢你。。
为了你再辛苦在难过也可以。。
每个人都有权力喜欢一个人也有权力决定是否要和他/她在一起。。一旦决定喜欢一
个人必须准备有受伤的可能性，虽然有准备但是还是压抑不住。。喜怒哀乐存在与
每个人的人生。。不同人有不同的人生观。。不同的人生观就会有不同的启事不同
的启事就会有不同的结果。。

Nowadays before i sleep sure think tio her .. and those regretful things .. Haiz.. think think think then very pekcek with myself .. thinking myself so useless.. Dont know why my heart keep very bu an .. Now, she seldom reply my msg dy .. and we become lesser chat .. haiz... dont know wat to write dy .. i just now my fikiran kusut masai



~|regretful|~

Missing her ...

Do u noe .. that this few days u went genting .. and not free chat with me .. i very very miss u ... keep cant sleep well a .. =.=" .. but i dont mind la .. there are many things to busy there .. Just wish u wont get cold and flu enuf ^^ .. rest well .

爱得越深就会伤得越痛

爱得越深就会伤得越痛。。可是为什么我们依然毫不畏惧一切呢?如果她不接受我/对方将伤透我的心。。也许。。

这是因为我们深深地爱着对方。。愿意为她们付出一切。。

对方不接受你或者突然间告诉你说她不爱你了可能是因为她不想那么早谈恋爱。。

也许是在考你。。也许是真的不再爱你了。。也许她认为在你身边不够安全感。。也

许她认为你不能给她幸福。。也许她认为别人会比你更好。。

>>不被接受/突然被抛弃的朋友:

别伤心。。再接再厉。。不应该垂头丧气。。应该振作起来。。如果你真的爱她。。

你应该让她自己做选择。。(在身边默默地爱她。。默默地保护她。。) 也许你们可

以当好朋友。。

喜欢一个人并不是嘴上说说的而是应该发自内心。。嘴上说的通常都是不切实际的。。

应该有实际行动。。

喜欢一个人是否有罪(辩论)

喜欢一个人并没有罪，有罪的是喜欢一个人并不敢说出来


正方>>是的喜欢一个人并没罪，但是喜欢一个人就代表喜欢她/他的全部。。。优点
和缺点。。喜欢一个人应大胆地说出来。。也好让双方舒服些不会像有些事情被隐
瞒。


反方 >>暗恋一个人也就是喜欢一个人而并不告诉他/她你喜欢他/她才是对的。。在
暗地里盖一座自己想要的城堡。。不告诉他/她。。避免伤害双方的和气。。

Classmates

Wei see tio le pls dont angry .. this is what i feel..

According to the namelist :

1.Lee Yi Ling >> a prefect .. i seldom talk to her so not really noe .. Quite erhem la .. her sound ... =.= .. Dont know why keep feel she is pretending la .. her acts all ... =.=
2.Lee Zhi Qian >> an active girls.. came from same pri sch.. quite peramah .. can chat together .. she pick me as her gan didi wor .. quite cham last time she keep ans punitha's questions .. but then teacher forget her name=.=
3.Lee Ying Shiuan >> okok la same pri sch and class..
4.Leong Hui Qi >> So man ^^ .. when she shout a .. will become deaf de lor .. Hm... her ppls oso not bad la .. but then rude , man , and pimples make her seem...
5.Leow Yee Theng >> same pri sch , pri sch classmate.. quiet girl.. and her voice very soft .. cant hear one a .. pri sch start teacher always paksa her shout lols =.=.. dont know hows her ppl la seldom talk to her ..
6.Liang Kai Ling >> Short , white girl.. Er.. quite pia for exam de.. seldom talk too.. heard that zhuhen fancy her huh ? ^^.
7.Lim Ai Fong >> Yo quite behshiok her .. pretending cute a? Very man one .. she behshiok nia then gonna like gangster .. wanna fight .. at tuition she sit behind me .. i just stretch my backbone .. my head at the back.. pull my hair ? what the ... then hor very what de .. think that i am her sister a ? come so close ? what the ... ppl see tio oso will anyhow think =.= .. please leh care yr attitudes .. very irritating de ..
8.Lim Chern Nee >> Erherm.. all oso noe la hor ? this is the person who i fancy la .. i always notice her one la ..An active girls, like to make friends with others .. no care is boy or girl.. -.- dont know wanna write what a .. Almost everything of her to me is ....
9.Lim Hui Yin >> Can chat la ... quite good her person .. Same sch with kahliang .. 2oso siao siao de.. very pro at shooting and joking =.=...
10.Lim Jia Ni >> Er.. her face quite like my relative la ^^ talking oso same same... Friendly .. Hm a tx always laugh her size .. =.= ..
11.Lim Jia Rou >> Pri sch classmates.. Quite friendly.. same la like pri sch .. we 2 keep chat one .. Erhem .. with tx quite .. hahas.. feel that they 2 very pei a .. they 2 always shoot lai shoot qu ..hit lai hit qu.. quite sweet =D
12.Lim Jo-anne >> Yo quite sad a .. same class almost 1 year le oso dont know my name huh ? seldom talk with her .. but hor her face seems like tx a .. ahahhas
13.Lim Kai Jie >> Good ppl la .. feel he and zhiqian quite ... hahas always play play there.. a good person .. can talk together ... quite funny .. Hm quite "man" la like me ^.^ ..
14.Lim Kar Wen >> okok lor .. class monitor .. always tio ass monitor bully =X ops.. ass monitor .. as a boy always call girl to do things nia .. So gentle "man" ops tx a ... becuz u very a gua hahahs ..
15.Lim Ke Jing >> small sized... live at lorong 27 just 1 lorong nia .. i didnt noe ahahs... Seldom talk to her de ..
16.Lim Khai Kim >> Er... A bit same as Cx la .. always ask ask ask ... at 1st i tot her result sure very good de .. mana noe .. ( Lanc-ing ) .. size same as cx la ..
17.Lim Khar Yee >> at first can talk la .. but after that dont know why never talk dy .. ppl okok la ..
18. Lim Leh Ching >> Good at arts la .. Quite pekcek with her .. teacher call me change place with khar yee then sit beside her .. bm period as others =.= .. always ask not related to the period .. so lazy to think la .. then copy things always slowly slowly .. cant catch up call me give her copy .. straight take my books ok ? then i copy what ?
19.Lim Pei Lian >> Heard they all said min hao fancy her a .. but from zhuhen and yongkit de mouth .. mana zhun ? hahas.. sound oso very soft la .. seldom talk to her ..
20.Lim Peng Heng >> BLACKIES !! hahas his skin very dark .. very dare de a .. always say things in front teachers ..
21. Lim Phey Yee >> Hm.. seldom talk to her only talk to her during kh period .. is my member la ..
22.Lim Phin Shen >> A Qun And lanc ppl ^^ who oso noe this la ... Fancy de ppl is Lim Chern Nee =) Buddies >> Loh Kah Liang , Low chuen Xian , Lim Tyng Xian , Lim Jia Rou er.. still got who a ? many la ~
23. Lim QiZhang >> Yo .. Beh tahan .. At sch act dai ko ? u very pai is it ? dont u noe CLB quite many paikia ? always at there do till yr paikia pattern u dint tot ppl backgroud might be black ? hahas relax our class all guai kia bo ppl background is black de ^^ . Please care yr attitudes la .. infront teacher oso like this.. do till very beh shiok de pattern .. behshiok dont come study la .. Say tio u nia jiu angry ? wanna punch ppl ? come on~ think twice before u take actions .. yr mother want u to study in CLB is becuz of what ? why will u be here ? what will happened if u really punch ppl ? what will others think of u ? what will the ppl around u feel ?
I same pri sch with u de ok ? pls dont mempersiasuikan me .. thx ^^ ..
23 Lim Qiao Mei >> Er quite friendly la can joking .. but i seldom talk to her la .. academic okok la ...
24im Qiu Ni >> Always act cute la .. =X ..
25 Lim QiZhang >> Yo .. Beh tahan .. At sch act dai ko ? u very pai is it ? dont u noe CLB quite many paikia ? always at there do till yr paikia pattern u dint tot ppl backgroud might be black ? hahas relax our class all guai kia bo ppl background is black de ^^ . Please care yr attitudes la .. infront teacher oso like this.. do till very beh shiok de pattern .. behshiok dont come study la .. Say tio u nia jiu angry ? wanna punch ppl ? come on~ think twice before u take actions .. yr mother want u to study in CLB is becuz of what ? why will u be here ? what will happened if u really punch ppl ? what will others think of u ? what will the ppl around u feel ?
I same pri sch with u de ok ? pls dont mempersiasuikan me .. thx ^^ ..
26.38 de Lim Shan Hua >> cousin of ^ dog .. wondering why this 38 and dog is cousin but 38 so good dog so bad ? o.0? 38 talking will splash kou shui de a hahahas ... pri sch that time i called her "LengLuiSiFu" ( telling a white lie ) .. quite big sized =X .. very funny too
27. Lim Sher Ling >> Aiks .. her ppl very what lor .. Act cute... Then keep playing ppl's gan qing de lor .. Wonder why so many ppls fancy her wor .. my senior .. others form 1 ppls.. Teikseng last tiem oso .. but then awhile nia break dy =.=
28. Lim Teik Seng >> Know him since i was 5 years old .. same kindergarden.. pri sch and sec.. hahas .. quite friend with him .. but when me and he we wont talk about we fancy de ppls and things de wor =.= just anyhow chat ..
29. Lim Tyng Xian >> Quite "mother" (in mandarin.. besides of ma ) .. he is our AsS monitor a ... ASS MONITOR = PIGU MONITOR HHAHAHAS .. tian zhen .. ke ai .. huo po .. hahahs .. quite small gas oso de ..
30. Lim Tze Ren >> very white .. seldom talk .. only kh period .. my member
31.Lim Wei Sheng >> hahas .. always smile de .. with him quite good la .. CUTE ~
32.Lim Yi Fang >> Dont know why at first dont like her de wor .. becuz she say my bad words a !! Grr... care so much do what ? my bag spoilt my prob ma .. then i be bendahari also kapsiao ? say dont know he know how to count and arrange the use of money bo .. what the ? but at last she no say le .. forgive her lor .. Heard that she is my madam de sis wor .. Yi Ching Madam .. isit true ?
33. Lim Yong Zheng >> Tiny boy .. same as kejing a.. hahas
34.Lim Zhu Hen >> 1st day already talk many with me and teikseng a .. very active.. wanna we suggest him as monitor but at last ass .. then tio pecat .. 1st day .. the teacher say his name wrongly .. lim zhu hen.. he replied : Cikgu jangan panggil hen la .. hen itu chicken la .. =.= .. very funny .. always learn tupai and ah leong .. nowadays keep say dog ..
35.Ling Jing Kai >> pri classmate .. okok la .. but sometime will behshiok de always say ppls badwords .. but he pri till now ald like this la .. dont mind ... like to kacau girls oso .. quite tiko =X .. with aifong very pei oso la hahhas .. 38 hua's mummy
36. Ling Min Hao >> Tx always say he de.. named Liang de ppl always so niang .. like ahleong.. but he didnt tot himself oso quite "mother" de.. he is a ba geh .. very like to fight result with ppls de lor .. very cham a .. quite pekcek when wanna fight with me .. i dont like fighting like this =.= .. if u didnt think to win someone i think ur result will better gua .. Think positive ^^
37.Loh Kah Liang >> 恐怖暴力组织队长... always bit me one T_T .. luckily my ren gong not bad ^^.. my best friend a .. can share secrets ... quite "cold" .. always joking de
38.Long Fu Kai >> LONG FUCK KAI .. hahas his friends taught me de .. always rub his face de dont know why .. and hor always bomb de .. kua zhang a ... camping that time keep make joke .. wanna sleep oso cant =.= laugh till ... his bomb .. once throw to u .. = laugh till die hahahas
39.Kelvin Low Chuen Xian >> brillant , handsome , smart boy .. ^^ very rich a ... but quite childish =X .. my buddies a .. can chat and share things ..
40.Low yong kit >> Steam la .. always joking .. his pattern .. aiks .. will laugh la .. but behshiok him at .. when he give things very like to put at ppl mouth =.=
41.Luk Kai Hoe >> Everyone read his chinese name as bridge =.= .. er.. quite "man" la .. with 38 hua very ngam.. one man one woman .. PEI ! .. pro at music too
42. Lum Kah Hoe >> quite friend .. same tuition .. always find me once i reach sch

Hm... Dont angry when saw hor .. thanks ^^ .. got some characteristic didnt write .. lazy think =X

Aiks...

Aiks .. why time pass so fast ? so fast gonna form 2 dy ... left few more days with classmates.. next year maybe not same class dy T_T ... But hor at least can same class with her la ^^.. This time exam i let water .. dont want too pia a .. later straight fly till A1 i cry till siao...

Hope next year .. when meet u all .. can say hi ... dont like my pri friends .. some keep didnt choi me .. T_T ..

Fr3ns 4Ever ~

2nd time + XX

(tuesday)aiks 2nd time made her felt dissapointed .. this time i oso felt disappointed with my self .. i quarrel with xx a .. this time xx straight go find her ask her come settle .. then carmen , 38 and her 3 ppl shooting me .. wanna say what oso cant la 1v3 sure lose.. this time very cham a ... i cried >.<.. luckily she never angry .. she said i too care about her dy a ... and she cant tahan .. T_T .. gonna change dy o cinderela..

Ok now .. lets say about this xx ... i behshiok him becuz hor everytime i never behshiok him then he say i behshiok him... pekcek bo ? ppl just tired wanna rest say ppl behshiok him le .. say till i behshiok him..
and hor dont know why when i with him sure tio timpa malang de.. 1st time tio teacher scold tidak bertanggungjawab 2nd time tio teacher say never do homework 3rd time he broke my plan 4th aiks mai say le ... everytime with him very sui siao one .. and he very xiao qi one .. say tio him abit nia then angry dy ... he never think our feel when he say us .. still got what a ? many la .. lazy say le .. arbo will became hate him again

Nvm la he still a kid .. must forgive him la ...

1ST CAMP > JOTA-JOTI

yoz all.. sorry for long never update.. becuz i preparing for jota and went there . jota stand for jambouree on the air and joti stand for jambouree on the internet. very fun leh.. .1st day we build gadgets ... then night time very enjoy .. we dancing all the way .. and i learnt break from zhenhong.. then night time we sleep and keep joking =.= then just sleep for 4 hours .
The 2nd day .. we layout our racksets... then we tio sshooot becuz the layout should be layout in personal.. actually 1st i ald layout by personal then the senior call me put tgt with theirs .. then tio scold lor .. after that station started .. i ran for 18 stations and then ard 3pm i go present totempole with laychern. didnt felt nervous at all la .. becuz one of the judge is my sis's friend .. and same age with her.. so got 1 亲切感.. then after present .. many ppl ald finished all the stations la .. swt lor .. slow alot .. then the other ppl use the special eye sight to see me .. ( tot he very good in physical .. why will win he leh ? hahas that mean i better la)..then no heart dy .. slowly run lor .. run till 23 like this .. ohya.. the 24th hor .. more cham .. i wanna go challenge deadman.. mana know i wait there so long.. sir straight jump up and then they finished.. i didnt .. TIMES UP ! .
Shit lor stations had been closed. 3rd day ... i solo go pia all the stations ... 1st is joti ..then i go deadman and others... easy la .. the most cham is the comando.. we have to crawl over the muds .. OHya got 1 more funny incident >> after climbing tree and i get down from that .. i saw a K810i on the chair i tot its mine .. becuz everytime i go physical test oso got take out but this time i never.. i straight take it then i go toilet to change casual clothes for muds... then i realised that my pocket got 2 .. i very nervous then i straight run go the station and ask the stationer is that hers/ his ? then they said no but its my friend one =.=" sia sui.. then TL asked us who took others phone or stole .. i scared sia ... i tot back sch will tio punish... but thats not my fault la.

Wa pekcek !

yo sibei pekcek a got a senior like this >>
he hor very cham one .. other senior call me do this work then he call me go do other work
u shiok meh ? if ppl ald know u got work and call u do 1 more ... settle 2 at once ? funny...
then hor.. anything very hard and he dont like / know .. will call form 1 go do one .. mana fair ?
raining day call ppl run out go buy things ?
no raining day dont call ?
then call me help support him .. then keep do till his pekcek pattern ..
Think 1st la pls ? u cover tio my sight how i see ? funny
then keep scolding wor .. hear tio oso pekcek .
he tot who he ? keep on ordering ...
and i am PT in the patrol .. he knew but keep do till dont know i am the PT ..
then sit place... he dont want sit there keep call me change with he ?
anythings bad only know throw to form 1 ppl .. sitting alone very lonely la . call me 1 ppl go ?
then jota that time .. building gadgets .. keep playing solo ? then never teach and scold ?
form 1 de ppl go there wanna learn oso never teach la .. slow efficiency one .. other ppl ald finish but he ? haha
then running station.. call me follow them .. then 1st station i follow them then he call me care all the phones.. then they run finish le straight go other station never wait me . wht the hell ? call me be maid la ?
take the things then follow they only ? then i no nid get badge lor ?
after that i throw all the things back to them and solo run ..
after he saw me straight scold me wor .. say dont alone run la .. WHAT THE FUCK ?
and his pattern i really beh tahan .. luckily i not same patrol with him in school.
ohya.. stil got 1 things.. my plan i think its ok .. becuz more save time ..
he dont wnat use just say la . find the very cham de reason..know what he asked?
he asked how to make holes and tins ? ( sure use nails and hammer what)
he then asked me where to find the tools ( sure the nearest place > scout room la )
walao leh

CONCLUSION > I BEH SHIOK HIM LA ... c+b DE LEH KEEP BULLYING ? AND SOLOING ? WHAT WE GONNA LEARN ? WHAT WE GONNA DO ? DO ALL THINGS ALSO TIO SCOLD

墙与门

其实每个人之间都隔着一栋墙。。
它保护你。。避免被他人伤害
只有你家人能够靠近你。。
但是有时候就是那栋墙建得太高了。。
人家很难接近..


其实每个人的心灵都有一扇门。。
它从未被打开过。。
它永远都被铁链及锁头封着。。
直到你找到你的另一半。。
你是钥匙的主人..
你有权力决定
你要让谁进去

喂。。我很想打开你心灵的那扇门。。
多了解你。。
可以吗?

对不起

对不起，我知道我很没用，

没在第一时间上前保护你，安慰你，

当时我的心就像有支针插在那。。

我很后悔，

为何当时不上前去而在那儿发愣。。

希望时光能倒流，

回到当时的情景。。

若能回头我希望当时是她受伤过后，

我不忍心再看她受伤。

我答应你我一定会在第一线保护及安慰你!

最后还是想说声对不起。。是我的错，是我没有用。。

Anxious a ...

Sunday > wa .. so anxious tomorrow gonna see and sit beside her dy o...
Monday> really sit beside her .. but i not dare to talk a ... very warm there o ^^ i keep on smiling and whole body sweating
Tuesday>Argh today she ran to the back and sit a ..
Wed> she sat beside me after i said she scared .. heart jumping so fast a ..
Thurs> not dare to sit 5cm between us 1 sentence talked to her
Fri> got improved a .. i took away my bag ..

si3nZ

yoz so boring ... whole raya holidays go school for patrol activities 8am -5pm seems like didnt do anythings ... all only plan .. but none of the plan work nicely ... almost everyday also quarrel .. i most like is 26 september sat de activity... all working hard.. but still play play .. keep on joking -=.=" 16 oct is coming la ... 20 days more to go only ...
Tomorrow will be original sch days .. i wait these day so long dy .. can see her face ^^

Fight For It

16 Oct 2009... Will be the 1st camp and jota i ever joined . 3 days 2 nights ... Friday to Sunday ... Friday no nid go school YeaH~ ^^ .. but then... I want fight for the Piala Jota ... This is my aim ... I worked very hard o... everyday at home train my stamina ... scare when the physical test i will failed ... although my physical good enough =X .. Hopefully , our patrol will get the piala jota .. and be the best patrol .

Back~

Yoz ~ I am Back .. Sorry a long time never play Blog dy. .. becuz no time a .... now i will post somethings weekly ^^

Feel of Fancy

Don't know since when ...
i feel myself start fancy her ...
we always sms ...
chat on msn ...

She is the first one ..
The first one i chat with her thru msn for so long ..
She is the first one ..
Who i sms with her non stop..
She is the first one ..
Who i shared my secret with ..

Becuz of her ..
i changed myself ...
from a cool boy became much active ...
and becuz of her i slept later than the time i often sleep...

I wonder why ...
Everytime i oso thinking of her ..
I wonder why ...
I will felt sad when saw her eyes turns red ...

She told me that she fancy a guy "Jimmy"...
i also dont know why ...
i didnt changed my mind ..

She also told me ..
Everyday 7am she will awake...
Zhun Zhun that is the time i always wake. ..
Why will like this .. ?

She noticed me ...
that when i receive her message and replying her
i will smiling ..
I also curious ...
when i am dull .. once i receive her message i will became happy ..

She said ...
If i really fancy her ... i should tell in front her ...
I promised her ... that i would say in front her ... when i grown taller ..
She also said..
She will say in front me if she really fancy me ...

She also said ...
Her heart jumping very fast when talking face to face with me ...
Same here...
But now .. i am much braver ^^

Only a few ppls noe who is that girl ...
And i hope u dont tell others ...
Until she really accept me ...
And pls dont go disturb her ...
I dont want to see her get hurt ...

Those who dont know ..
Pls dont ask ...
Becuz i wont tell others ^^

一件开心且伤心的事

当上了模范生我的生活变了很多...心里充满了仇恨...它如何对待我...那霸道,野蛮,自以为是的态度让我恨不得一全向它打出去让它知到我不是好惹的!但受到了阻止..只好坐在那儿忍! 其他**都任为它错了但它竟然不理睬反而骂他们!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 无发忍受!!